mixed and bitter sweet feelings.
I wish I could say why. I wish I could say why it’s so brutal. Why it’s so cut throat. But I know this is a test and I wouldn’t have been put to it if the world didn’t think I could get through it.
In a sense, I am thankful to realize this now very early on. It’s just ironic how some books I have read about manning up and having to be tough at work felt inapplicable to where I wanted to excel in a career.
How naive of me.
It’s all just starting to make sense and I realize why people say the entertainment industry is one of the hardest to be in.But either way, I am proud of all the personal growth I have made. I’m proud for learning more about myself and how to handle situations. I’m proud to have made it a year. I’m still thankful to have been blessed to have my first job be immediately in the industry I wanted to be so quickly out of college. I’m not going to give up.
it’s 1964 I’m on a balcony smoking a really long cigarette and some lofty music is playing I drop my martini on the floor it breaks and 5 men scramble to get me a new one